It's 1.08am... I've just received the biggest punch in the face, so to speak.
I guess I just want to capture the emotions of the moment, and then sleep on it, and then... I don't know.
It hurts so damn much... Everything was a lie. Everything was part of a deception based on... illusions and more lies. Deceit. making you hear only what you want to hear. To deceive you.
That's people for you.
But all i can think of is: why do this to me? Why make me suffer so ruthlessly? What is the aim of such implaccable cruaulty on my person?...
Yes, I was always too naive. maybe now I've learned. i guess only time will tell.
Right now... I feel shattered. I was chasing a ghost. Yet another in my life.
I... feel like... I've been gutted like a fish, emptied from within. What's left of me?
These past three months... were all an illusion in which I got caught up. And now it's time to wake up and smell the coffee.
It's time to join reality, no matter how much I hate it.
It's time... to just accept that everything is rotten and nothing can be done about it.
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